My Life With Cancer

One of the main issues I have been fighting is getting my medication. It doesn't seem to matter how much pain I am in or the fact that I must stay on my medication on a regular basis, I always seem to fight for it. As I am typing this entry I am sitting at home in pain waiting for authorization for my medication. I knew yesterday everything would be closed so I did my part and put in my refill early for today. That didn't seem to matter.

I have been using a heating pad and hot rice bag to try and ease the pain. I even went as far as to take hot showers. As hot as I could stand it. Nothing seems to help. I have been giving everyone around me an attitude. I don't mean anything by it, I can't help it. I find myself saying sorry more these days that actually talking to my friends and family. They say they understand, that doesn't make it right.

I recently got a second opinion on my cancer status. It wasn't good news. I will go into that later. I still wake up each day knowing I will live to see another. No one or nothing will stand in my way fighting this. I have put myself in a position that, what the doctor says, goes. I use the internet to follow up for myself.

Well, The pain is to much right now. I have to walk think of something.